PastPresentContinuum

I am a thought, I am my mind,
I see all but am I blind?
I am a pleasure, I am lust,
I am magic, but is it dust?
I am a woman, I am my child,
I am lethal but is that wild?
I am a now, I am here,
I am love but do I care?

Current Mood: Triumphant
Current Music: i am a Bitch - Alanis Morissette

They live, they wont die,
they haunt your insides.

They predate, they wont leave,
they peep through your eyes.

I wrote these few lines and just couldn't go any further.
Thank God, I am still a few steps away from being a Rock Star.

Current Mood: Dismissive
Current Music: Yeh jo des hai tera...(just becoz its playing in the backdrop!)

I wish there were something new,
I wish it were now.
I wish it would happen to me,
I wish, I wish and how!

I wish for it to rain,
And a forever season of springs.
I wish joy were sprinkled
when fairies shook their wings.

I wish I saw toadstools
And little imps hide away
I wish there were knights
And dragons for them to slay.

I wish I didn't grow up
And lose faith along the way.
I wish I could still believe
Love was here to stay.

I wish I heard the spoken words
And not look for give-away signs
I wish I could simply read
And not between the lines.

I wish when the caterpillar died
I could hurt and cry.
I wish I could again rejoice
on the birth of the butterfly.

I wish I didn't see it all
As the cosmic trade-off
I wish magic came my way
And let my expression un-scoff.

How I wish there was something new,
And I wish it were now.
I wish it would happen to me,
I wish, I wish and how!




Guru Speak: "Reality is just a crutch for people who can't cope with drugs." - Robin Williams.

Current Mood: Itching For One
Current Music: A movie this time..Finding Neverland:-). What else?

Most times
    like wails behind glass doors,
    into another eyes, I look but never see
    the love, the hurt, a thousand words
    spoken on a muted TV.

Some times
    like life passing in a flash,
    a new face, I see in a strange city
    the hope, the longing, the tacit promises
    that second lasts an eternity.

Those times
    like walking into a trap,
    caught in that space, my eyes or theirs
    is it me or is it them
    which ones speak? who hears?

All times
    like life is playing a game,
    it hides me, it seeks me
    I lose, I win, I start all over again
    but life prevails; and it lets me be.

Guru speak: Join The Army, Visit exotic places, meet strange people, then kill them.

Current Mood: Amazed
Current Music: None really...

We all like to hang out with our own kinds.
Does that make us gay?
Mind gay?

Guru speak: I am confused, is he a straight gay man or is he a gay straight man?  - Carrie

Current Mood: Thoughtful
Current Music: Papa Dont Preach - Madonna

Two lives to live
and we gotta live them both.
Once forward and once in reverse,
for all they are worth.

Once in our fantasies
and once in contented sighs.
Once in our actions
and once in repeated whys’.

Once in our hopes
and once in immobile regrets.
Once in our hurts
and once in fearful threats.

Once in our victories
and once in retold tales.
Once in our facades
and once in silent wails.

We gotta live our future girl,
We gotta place our bets.
We gotta do it backwards too,
We gotta pay our debts.

Two lives to live honey
we gotta live them both.
Once forward and once in reverse,
for all they are worth.

 

Guru Speak: vini, vidi, verbatim - I came, I saw, I told everybody about it. – Ginger Meggs

Current Mood: Preachy
Current Music: Staring at the Sun - U2

In reeking alleys, under the bridges,
In hunger and pain, in cold lovelessness,
He waited and he searched, he cried out loud.
But angels didn’t come looking for him.

One day he quit; he killed to live,
He fought for bread, he raped for love.
That day he was delivered, the devil took him home.
And all he said was, ‘Finders Keepers’.

Guru speak: Have an adequate day.

Current Mood: Cold
Current Music: Man who sold the world - Nirvana

You, like the magic ripple in a silver stream.
You, like the wet moon on a rainy night.
You, who are so perfect in my imagination.
You, who mar yourself by existence.

Guru speak: Love is a state of mind which has nothing to do with the mind. - Bob Phillips

Current Mood: Dismissive
Current Music: Jab Nahin Aaye The Tum - Dev

A high rise.
A French window.
A bean bag, a vodka.
And an unending stream of traffic.
All is well with the world.
I am content to be.

But I hate the harp. Got them to replace it with a jukebox. Got all my favorite music too. Though the neighbors resent Pearl Jam.

My job is not bad either. I basically gotta watch over a moron who is too lazy to get into trouble even. I am not complaining, it works for me.

I also like the wings…came with the job, you know. Kinda cool! They way moonlight reflects on them n’ stuff! I guess I will hang on to them a li’l longer…not that I have a choice u see!

But now n’ then it gets some boring…folks around here pretty much keep to themselves. Fat Bud at the gates says my friends are not due in for a long time. I came early, they say it was the vodka…may be.

Anyways, I gotta rush now…the bozo down there needs me. His girl friend is coming in. It’s her birthday. He has forgotten. Ha! Guess I will watch some before I leave….u know what I mean…;-)

Guru Speak: "I distrust camels, and anyone else who can go for a week without a drink." -- Joe E Lewis

Current Mood: Sloshed
Current Music: None

slither hither
you serpentine eyes,
over me and around.

caress cajole
hold my heart,
softly love abound.

whisper warmth
fill my soul,
passion so profound

slowly laugh
spread the venom,
while you confound

squeeze choke
draw out my life,
without making a sound

come pray
complete the deceit,
on my burial ground.

 

Guru Speak: And my parents finally realise that I'm kidnapped and they snap into action immediately: they rent out my room. -- Woody Allen

Current Mood: Gloomy
Current Music: Falling In Love Is So Hard On The Knees - Aerosmith

New York and New Delhi, two of my favorite cities in the world. What makes them different from the rest? What makes the two alike? Certainly not the first half of their names. Or even the number of Indians found in each. It’s something else. They are something else.

About me:
I am God, the center of my universe, and I make the world happen. If it wasn’t for my consciousness, my perception, everything around me ceases to be. I donot comprehend it, so it is meaningless.

About them:
They are huge, have lives of their own and they breathe. They are ever awake, they are nonchalant, they are cruel. They make the people and not the other way around.

About us:
I love them, I envy them. Why? I don’t know. May be the way they talk to me. May be the way they mock. May be the way they dare me to hate them. May be the way they teach.
They humble me, they exhilarate me.
They seduce me, they reject me.
They make me alive, they make me mortal. They make me…God no more!
But shhh! I don’t want them to hear.

 

Guru speak: Somewhere out there is another little freak who will love us, understand us, and kiss our 3 heads and make it all better.  – Carrie.

Current Mood: Amazed
Current Music: Im in a New York state of mind

To run, but not to run out.
To stop, but not to stop dead.
To hold, but not to hold back.
And Wings.
Just to fly.

Guru speak: Argue for your limitations, and sure enough they're yours. - Richard Bach

Current Mood: Thoughtful
Current Music: None

Nowadays television, radio and every other conceivable media is full of shows like Indian Idol and RJ Hunt and stuff where the decisions are based on our votes. Even the Ms. World pageant is going the same way. We are incessantly being asked to vote for some or the other inconsequential event. When we have such an effective media to reach out to people and hear what they have to say, why can not we use the fact for something much more useful? Why can’t we, the biggest democracy in the world, be asked to speak up for real issues like Kashmir and terrorism? Who knows, somebody just mite come up with a bright idea.

Isn’t peace worth any chance?

Guru speak: There must be something about India, after all one billion people can’t be wrong.

Current Mood: Patriotic
Current Music: Ab Tumhare hawale watan sathiyo...:-)

I had known her for as long as I remembered. I know she was with me even before that. She hung around always, no matter what. Whether I was a gawky kid or the lanky teenager or the secret lover…I am sure all through this she was in love with me, as much as I was with her.Think, she even tried to tell me in her own, sometimes quiet, sometimes not-so-subtle ways. Those times, I guess I took her for granted. May be a little too much, till she threw those fantastic tantrums (she still makes me smile…:-)). But she did not give up on me. She stuck around all the time, through my senility, through my sickness, just as she had always done.

Then one day, she quit. Vamoose! Just like that! She was gone. She who had been my friend, my lover; she had conspired, she had delivered me to death. Oh! How it had killed me, when life ceased to be…

Guru speak: When I finally got my mind together, my body fell apart.

Current Mood: Thoughtful
Current Music: You and me... in this beautiful world

The sweat.
The cramps.
The ground reels.

The second wind.
World coming into focus…done.

The adrenaline rush.
The finish line.
The exhilaration.

Remove the prosthesis. They are such an inconvenience.

Guru speak: Ooh, can't you see it's only life. So bring it on. – Seal

Current Mood: Triumphant
Current Music: Bring it On - Seal